Blame it on this chilly December night. Blame it on the fact that I’m already 24-heavily scarred yet tremendously blessed. Blame it on the fact that I have received second chances, third chances, nth chances. Blame it on this fabulous song by The Skyline Drive.

Blame it on me.

“All these things that we do
I build now to point towards You
A lifetime of chasing truth
Long after this is new
I’ll stand by You”

…but tonight all I know is He’s got me where He wants me to be.

“And I’m safe as far as I can see
And there’s no place I’d rather be but right here.”

Tonight, I am reminded to give thanks for everything I have ever been given. I do not know if i’ll cry or laugh or jump or whatever: I am bursting with so many things. I think I’ll just stand… stand and see what He wants me to see. He doesn’t need what I can offer Him. He wants me.

I grew up thinking -scheming-on how I’ll go about changing the world. Bad thing is I got careless. I forget about the optimism of my childhood. I found myself down and out, the songs of my childhood missing in some point between A and B.

That stops now.

Tonight, I surrender. I let go of the reins. You direct me Lord.